Memorial Ring

The ring for me to remember my grandma is done.

I wish I was there for her, but I wasn't.
I should've gone back, but I didn't.
I could've been there with her, but I didn't make it.

I thought you would be here with us for longer, but you didn't.

Your smile were so beautiful in the picture. I am so proud to be your grandchildren and I wish I can make you proud, somehow.

I was looking at the picture, trying to find you on my face. I guess I got your eyebrow.
Every time when I see my mom in me, I know it is also you.

I wish God gave you 6 more months, just 6 more. So I can see you. So you can see Xiao-Yu get married.

I'm still learning everyday, learning to face the fact that when I got home, I will never see your smile again. I will never hear you saying "Xiao-Hui, you are so cute", I will never hear your giggling.

No more your best lion-head, fish, and dumpling.
No more eating red chili on the toilet.
No more, no more...

I miss you telling me that you don't like Japanese channels.
I miss you telling me to eat more.
I miss you watching TV and knit.
I miss you saying how you are taking care of grandpa.
I miss...

It's funny. The more I tried to remember you, the fuzzier you are.

I love you and I miss you. 6 months... why can't God wait for another 6 months.