曲終人散

I don't want to leave Boulder yet. There are too many things here I just can't let go. There are people here I just don't want to leave behind. There are memories here that I can't quite close it up yet.

Can I stay? No. My research background made it hard for me to find a job around here. My not so intelligent brain made me almost impossible to stay. I wish there are people who can help me, but I guess there is none.

Life sucks.

I guess what sucks the most is I trusted when people say will do the connection and turns out it was just saying for fun. Only remembers me when there is help needed, oh well... whatever.